Skip to main content

Dreaded first draft

Writing is awesome, its a hobby that actively encourages you to hide away in your room, avoid humans and day dream spending days in your own private world hidden in the depths of your mind.

It's fantastic!

However, writers are a strange type of creature. You see a writer will hide away in a comfy cocoon of blankets, pillows, jogger and hoodies, surrounded by unhealthy snacks and craving coffee, hissing at anyone who dares goes near their beloved laptop.

This creature avoids leaving its cocoon and venturing into the bright lights of the real world, preferring to communicate through texts and the Internet because humans are scary creatures.

A writer is a self destructive creature, spending hours smothered in doubt and self hate as they are convinced that their work is dirt. They will surround themselves in isolation trying to create the perfect book, pouring their heart and emotions into words on a page.

As this strange creature grows and matures it will start to tiptoe into the real world. See, this little self destructive creature wants the world to read it's work, the hope of publishing their book drives them. But you can learn a lot about the creatures personality by what they write, this venerability scares them and sometimes can prevent them from leaving their cocoon.

For this strange creature to mature and reach adulthood it must complete the task of the dreaded first draft. For the tiny creature this will be the biggest fight it will have ever come across. Of course this wont be the most terrifying thing the creature has to do, editing is rumoured to be a dark lonely place what can send this timid creature running to a dark corner to hide. But for the time being, completing the first draft is the hardest thing they will have to face.
Oh but what is right often feels like betrayal.:

For me, I am still dragging my feet through my first draft. Over the time of writing my book I had rewrote it 3 time!!! I am an idiot for doing this. Yet, despite knowing how much of a set back that is and how painful it is to rewrite everything you've wrote so far, the temptation to do it a 4th time is still there. 

I know I haven't mentioned my book for a little while. I think my last post was in October when I wrote about creating an outline for your book. I haven't had too much time to carry on with my book at the moment. Whilst it's my dream to have it published one day, its not my priority right now. Currently I need to be focusing on my college assignments *I says whilst writing on my blog and avoiding the ever increasing list of assignments that I need to so* 

I'm also a bit stuck on my first draft. I know many other writers can sympathies with me when I say that writing your first draft is nerve wracking but exciting and  wonderful. You read your first draft, read it again, then again and again. The amount of times I've read my book is ridiculous and because I've read it that much it seems predictable and boring whats understandable. Despite knowing this, I'm still dragging my feet with my first draft. I've read many other posts about getting through your first draft and I've came across quotes that encourages you to just write. Don't look back, don't edit, just write!

So this is just a little update on how I'm doing writing wise. If you have any advice, that would be really appreciated so come say Hi in the comments. But for now, that's as far as I've gotten with my book.

I will keep you guys posted though.



Popular Posts

Growing Pains

Growing up is a scary thing and in all honesty, I can't stand it.

I don't understand that at the age of 18 and now being considered an adult I have to act differently and all my old childish but comforting habits need to be demolished. I don't understand why I get disapproving looks when I don't do things others my age do.

Now that college is over people of my age are making the exciting transition to Uni or full time work, but mainly uni.

I'm not doing this.

I've just came out of college with an BTEC Extended diploma and a Sup diploma in forensic science. It's more than enough to get me into uni but I'm going back for a 3rd year at the hell hole more commonly know as college to study business.

When people ask why I'm not going to Uni in September my reply is usually along the lines of "I have a years left of funding and I want to make the most of it." This isn't a lie. I do have a years left of free funding so I might as well get anot…

Shy girl speaks

In the movies the shy girl will speak.
She'll find a man that understands and she will be come brave.
Clenched hands she will rise to the stage,
Her audience a sea of those who doubted her.

In the movie she opens her mouth and starlight comes out.
An enigma unraveled in the pale blue of her voices.
People sit shocked, unable to move.
They listen to her voice like their new favorite tune.

In the movie she is loved.
They surround her in a summers embrace.
When the day turn grey they rush to her side.
Holding her close, her tears fall no more.

Life isn't a movie though, the shy girl won' be loved.
She will speak of course, but they're not listening.
Her voice isn't going to hold them captivate, no.
There won't be anyone to run to her side.

When the shy girl speaks it will be too late.
They've all gone home.
She knows deep down though, she wasn't welcome to begin with.
Her tears will fall, alone.


More beautiful when broken.

A year or so ago I was at an even called New Wine.

During the week  went to a seminar called 'my friends scars'. It was all about self harm and how as a christian we can support recovery with people who self harm and how we can use the bible to help ourselves if we were struggling fighting it. I don't remember too much about it to be honest, much to my annoyance that year I was too shy to make notes during the seminar, this yea I learned my lesson and took a note book with me. However, 16 year old me did make one not on a scrap of paper, I sadly lost that piece of paper until this afternoon where I found it.

On that piece of paper was the word 'kintsukuroi'.

 kintsukuroi (sometimes known as Kintsugi) is a beautiful thing.From what i have read, it's origins is from Japan. Broken pottery is repaired, that's all it is. But instead of being repaired with glue, it's repaired with lacure that contains gold or other desirable metals. The outcome of these repai…