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Faith, hope and love

 This afternoon I was talking to a friend of mine, I was pretty stumped on what I could write about today. We have a bit of a running joke as both of us have blogs that we write but we are both too afraid to let each other read them, well I know I am anyway. But I don't mind talking about mine periodically, waiting for the day that I will let them read mine.

During this they said about made writing a post to make others feel better about themselves. I can't remember the precises words they used but it was something along the lines  of  "write something that makes people think they're worth a damn." There words not mine... But they had a point.

Being honest I wasn't completely sold on the idea, I haven't been the happiest with myself lately and I have taken a whole load of hits and step backs, leaving me feeling unable to talk to you all about self love, simply because I didn't really feel like loving myself at that point in time.

Not really wanting to tell my friend this, I came up with the excue that I'd tried that enough times and what I didn't tell them as well was to be honest I wasn't sure if what I was saying was having an impact on people. However, their reply was something along the lines of
"you can always tell someone they're worth it more.

Once again they had a point. So that's what I'm going to attempt to do.To be honest I have no idea how I'm going to do that, I have no plan or outline for this post, you are literally getting things as soon as my brain comes up with it (so be warned this might be a little dis-organized 😀)

Something else I did today was upload my photos off my camera from a few weeks back (so more photo orientated posts will be coming soon!) If you haven't ever seen any of my photos, I think I might have one post on here that I did a while back, you should know that I like working with light. I love photos of pretty landscapes and objects but my heat has always lied in the quirkiness of light. This usually leads me to experimenting lots, I have varying amounts of success but when it works, it works well.

On my camera I found these.  I took these pictures when I was much happier. I wanted to try and inappropriate my style of photography and make a message out of them.

 So this was one of the last images I made. It was a challenge I'll admit to that. I had the shutter speed on my camera turned down pretty low, my lens zoomed out as much as possible and I was on low battery. It was difficult to write that backwards in a straight line. But it was worth it. I might not be happy with myself at this moment in time but I can still tell you that you are loved.

The LORD is close to the broken-hearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit... Psalm 34:18

How priceless is your unfailing love, O God!... Psalm 36:7

 Cast all your anxiety on Him because he cares for you... 1Peter 5:7

Part of me wishes I could tell you over and over again that you are loved. But maybe people don't need me of all people to tell them that. Maybe all I need to say is that God loves you. You might not know Him, you might know Him but have drifted away, you might already have a relationship with Him or you might not even believe in Him.

But if you ever want to know you're loved, ask God to show you. If you have a bible collecting dust on a shelf, how about picking it up? What have you got to lose? Heck, you can even read the bible online if you want.

 And you know what guys?

I wasn't originally going to include this one. But writing about this now has kinda reminded me that I am loved too. I can fall, fail and drift away but I know that I can ALWAYS rest in the comfort that I am loved. Life's antics might cloud my vision sometimes, it might change how I view my situation and myself but at the end of the day I am loved by God. That really makes me stop and think. I just need to use my small seedling of faith, a whole lot of hope and knowledge that I am loved. With them maybe I can do some fantastic things for the Lord.

For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord,' plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future... Jeremiah 29:11

Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you... Deuteronomy 31:6



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