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My synesthesia

I have synesthesia.

The easiest way to describe it would be a crossing of the senses in my brain. I ca hear a sound and also see a colour at the same time. It's quite a cool quirk to have.

So I have quite a few forms of synesthesia, but most of mine revolve round colour. I synesthesia in all five of my sences . So I can see music and sounds, I see colours when I touch certain textures, I see colours with smells, tastes and pain. Words are in colour for me as well. Objects and numbers have personality 



Instead of trying to describe it too you i will try and show you and give examples.

1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 0 22 46 79  How most people see numbers
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 0 22 46 79  How I see numbers. Each one has its own specific colour. Some also have personality's so the number 4 is very harsh and unforgiving, 7 is sly and tricky, 8 is lovable and kind and finally 9 is horrible, mean and dark. 

I also see words in colour.
Pizza
Shoe 
Soap
Environment
Colour
Pries
Surprise
Door
Wood
World
Open 
These two above are some of the more common types of synesthesia but the ones bellow are a little less common and more unusual.

I judge pain on what colour I see and feel as well. So if I get hurt and am in pain I won't perceive it like most do. Yes, I still feel pain but not like most do. I see a colour when I'm in pain. So if I've got a paper cut I will feel pain but I will also see flashes of white in that area. Or when I had a suspected fractured elbow the was a misty white coming from that area. If I have over exercised and the next day the area that I worked on will be a honey yellow colour. When I had a twisted ligament in my knee it was a muted grey. If I can feel pink pain I know I will be ok but if I'm feeling a misty white pain I know something is wrong. I only see a misty white colour when I have had suspected fractures, broken bones and burns. Misty white pain is the highest level of pain I can be in.

When I hear things I see colours, shapes and textures. I'm sitting in the library writing this and the sound of me hitting the keys on my laptop is bright blue 2D squares. The sound of two people talking is and orange yellow, one girl has a yellow voice and the other red. The hum of the computers is a pale green. My friend has a blue name but her voice is deep purple lightning blots and triangles.

When I hear music I see a video of colour. Every song is different and equally as beautiful as the last. I don't like all types of music as they don't sound nice to me.However, I always tell people that I like all music as visually every song is a work of art

I love having synesthesia, I really couldn't see myself living without it. I often get asked by people if I find it annoying or irritating and the answer is always no, I don't. Having it is a part of my life and who I am. I have always had it. Until this year I though everyone saw the world like I did. Once I found out that not everyone could see what I saw I began to appreciate it more. 

If you look in youtube there is a fair amount of videos that describe what it is way better than I do, some of them also show you what its like to have it. So if you're curious I would really recommend having a look.

Ella. 



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