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A little bit of honesty

I've been thinking and I'm going to be honest with you guys. And I think I need to take a slight step back from my blog. Don't worry I've got some posts already wrote out so I will still be posting but I think I need to take a slight step back.

I love my blog, I really enjoy writing on it and I love it when you guys comment but things have been happening in the back ground and I need to spend some serious time with God and get my priority right. At this point in time my blog is my escape but it has also become my distraction, I'm spending more time talking to you guys about my problems than I am with God.


So I am still posting but only on Fridays now, I will write things but I don't really want to go into too much detail about my own personal recovery for a little while, just until I get things sorted and I'm back on the path I should be on.

Once I'm back on track I will start posting twice a week again and I'll let you know how I'm doing. But for now my posts won't be as open as they were before. But I promise you I will be back as soon as things are sorted. I don't know how long that will take it could be days, weeks and maybe even a month, but things will be back to normal soon.

I'm not getting rid of my blog, nor am I stopping posing but I am however taking a step back on my more personal posts for the time being. So please don't be concerned if for a while I don't talk about my recovery as openly.

Ella :)


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