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There is one thing that I think most people can relate to to, and that's hating the feeling of helplessness. To see something, someone hurt or in pain and not being able to help them, not knowing how to help them is horrible.

For me I find myself feeling helpless when it come to my friends and people I care about more often than ever before. I so desperately want to help these people, especially the ones that I really care about, but I find myself lacking the knowledge to help them. But when I know how to I find myself in too much of  vulnerable position emotionally to help. I spent my school years putting my friends emotional health before my own. Helping them was all that mattered to me. Now in college and realising that I myself am suffering emotionally I had to make the decision to take a step back. To put my own health before others for the time being. I fell terrible for that, I feel selfish. But I can't help them if I am broken to such a significant extent myself. If I wait and get better myself, maybe then I can help them again.

However, this doesn't take a way the feeling of being helpless. I want to help the people closes to me but I can't at the moment.

So what can I do?

That question has been on my mind lots lately. What can I do to help them but still keep myself safe at the same time. I've came up with a few ideas how but I don't know if all of them will work.
  • I can pray for them - So I personally know this one will be a surprisingly difficult one to keep doing. For one not all of my friends and family are christian. That doesn't mean I can't pray for them but I've always found it hard to know what to pray for when it come to people who don't know God. I also find it difficult to pray as it is. I can get sidetracked so easily and because of this my prayers can sometimes feel forced as I'm trying so hard to to wonder off topic. But I've been assure so many times that you can't pray wrong and I really hope that's true. 
  • I can still be a good friend - Just because I won't get emotionally involved with their problems does not mean that I can't be a friend. It doesn't mean that I can't be a good friend either.
  • I can try and make them smile everyday I see them- This has been a personal goal that I've had for a while now. Everyday I challenge myself to make someone smile. Usually I just smile at the person and they smile back, but I know that I can be very good with people despite my shy persona. I know that I can make people laugh and smile so I fully intend to do that.
  • I can tell people I know can help them- This could be tutors at college if I have some massive concerns for one of my friends or it could juts be another person who also cares for that same individual. I don't mean ordering people to help them, but I can raise concerns with other friends about a person. I can't help them and be there for them as much as they need someone to be but I know people who can be there and will be more than willing to.
  • I can keep reminding them how special and important they are to me- By this I don't always mean telling them that, sometimes that's just popping up randomly on Facebook and asking them how they are. It's keeping in contact with a person and making them feel like they are important to me. It's letting them know that I value them enough to want to pend time with them and talk to them. Yes, I will tell them occasionally how much they mean to me but I've found personally that when people do that with me I soon start thinking that they are only saying it for that sake of saying it. I don't want that to happen.
So looking at this list I can question how helpless I truly am when it comes to helping people. I would still love nothing more then to directly get involved, but I've accepted the fact that it might not be a good idea if I try that at the moment. But just because I can't do that does not mean I am completely helpless. I can't help them as much as I want to, but I still have options to help them. So I will try, because I refuse to be helpless when it comes to the people I care about.



  1. I do wanna say you are a great scrupulous lady with one of the biggest heart pouring down ocean of clemency. If God exists, then May He bless you all and sundry.

  2. You are adorable girl I believe.


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